I know sometimes I’m not easy.
I am a complicated woman
who knows what
a good relationship
can look like,
and that colors
my expectations.
I’m not wooed by
sweet-sounding words,
bold professions of love,
or grand romantic gestures…
I’m actually quite leery of them.
I am slow to jump into big decisions;
I like to follow my heart and my brain.
I’m often too serious, guarded, and pensive.
Heartbreak, loss and pain shape my view.
It sometimes takes work
to love me.
But I love
with my
whole heart,
I’m loyal,
I’m fierce,
and I’m worth it.
Posts Tagged ‘feelings’
Complicated Woman
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged expectations, fear, feelings, love, overcome, relationships, respect, romance, self worth, shape poem, wholehearted, wise mind, worth on November 13, 2018| Leave a Comment »
Not Just for Lovers
Posted in Self worth, tagged comparison is the thief of joy, expectations, feelings, God, lonely, love, no Valentine, pressure, real love, single, true love, Valentine's Day, what is love on February 14, 2016| 4 Comments »
Valentine’s Day
doesn’t have to be
just for lovers
It doesn’t have to be
about being part of a couple
It doesn’t have to be
a symbol of romance
It doesn’t have to be
a “Singles Awareness Day”
It doesn’t have to be
a day of comparison
a day of proving one’s love
a day of relationship status
It doesn’t have to be
a day of wistfulness
a day of longing
a day of regrets
Valentine’s Day
can be anything you want it to be
and that’s all that matters
about it
It can be a day of gratitude
thankful for loved ones in our lives
It can be a day of self-care
pampering and peace
It can be a day of laughter
friendship and joy
It can be a day of
knowing and remembering
that you are loved
by your Creator
with a love beyond
any love you can imagine
Living in Grace
Posted in Self worth, Spiritual Awakening, tagged choices, control, expectations, feelings, God, grace, gratitude, healing, letting go, overcome, perfect, pressure, relationships on July 27, 2015| Leave a Comment »
What does it mean
to live in grace?
Does it mean…
that I no longer do anything wrong
or anything hurtful
that I sit in complete peace
never angry or hurt
that I am always kind
to myself and others
that I am free from feelings of
competition
overwhelm
unworthiness
anger
frustration
ingratitude
pain?
Well, no.
But it does mean
that my chains
to those feelings
can be broken
with a choice.
I can choose
to forgive
to be kind
to be peaceful
to be loving
to be joyful
to be patient
to be grateful
with others
AND MYSELF
because once we accept grace
for ourselves
we have an unlimited
amount to give
to others
And we will find ourselves
more often kind
more often peaceful
more often free
We just start by
choosing it.
I am Worthy
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged anxiety, comparison, expectations, faith, fear, feelings, I am enough, letting go, lonely, note to self, pressure, self worth, worthy on April 15, 2015| 4 Comments »
A reminder today, for any day…
I am worthy
just as I am
I will not look to others
to define myself
I will not look to others
for acceptance and approval
I will not look to others
to justify or rationalize
any of my own
internal negativity
I am doing the best I can
with all that I have
in this moment
in this day
in this time
in this space
and that’s enough
because I’m enough
I am lovable
I am precious
I am beautiful
I am worthy.
Boundaries
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged boundaries, boyfriend, caring, dad, daughter, decisions, doormat, expectations, feelings, friends, friendship, girlfriend, give, health, hope, husband, limits, love, mean, men, mom, nice, others, parent, pushover, receive, relationships, romance, self, self esteem, self worth, selfish, son, thoughts, wife, women, worth on February 9, 2013| 10 Comments »
I’ve been doing a little thinking about boundary setting lately…
What is your perspective?
Caretaking
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged caretaking, choices, codependency, control, doubt, expectations, family, feelings, love, men, perfect, poetry, pressure, relationships, respect, self awareness, self worth, women on January 16, 2013| 6 Comments »
Interesting
how I am always trying
to take care of you
how I strain and sweat
to make sure you are ok
to make sure you are happy
to make sure your feelings aren’t
hurt
regardless of how
I am feeling
But that’s not my job
it’s not up to me
to take care of you
You are grown
You are an adult
You can make your own decisions
You can make your own choices
You can handle
your own consequences
I don’t need to be involved
I don’t need to monitor
I don’t need to
make sure
everything is ok
Yet I do.
Oh, poor me
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged expectations, feelings, letting go, love, memories, poetry, self pity, self worth on July 1, 2012| 5 Comments »
Sometimes
I want
to just feel
sorry for myself
Oh, poor me.
I don’t have this
I don’t have that
or even more likely…
I didn’t have this
I didn’t have that
I was robbed
I was cheated
I don’t want this portion
Life is unfair
Oh, poor me.
Hey, snap out of it!
All the things I didn’t have
All the memories that aren’t ideal
All the mistakes that have been made
All the experiences, good and bad
All of the challenges I face each day
All of it
Creates the woman I am today
and I like me
except when I’m whining
about oh, poor me
Prayer for Depression
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged anxiety, depression, doubt, feelings, God, God's love, perfect, prayer, self worth, worry on June 9, 2012| 8 Comments »
Dear God,
I know that sometimes you meet me
in the places I least expect
and how I think things should be
is not always the way you think they should be
So, I humbly ask you to just
be with me through this
I refuse to see myself as less than anyone else
because of this
but ask that you be with me, and meet me where I am
Help me to know that your plans are bigger
than what i think they should be
and that maybe
you will use these experiences in my life
to help others
and to bring me closer to you
And so when I feel sad
when I am depressed or anxious
I will not pray for healing
I will not pray for it to be lifted
I will sit in my feelings
knowing there is nothing wrong with them
I will accept your timing
and rejoice in my experiences
and know
there is nothing wrong with me
♥ Amen ♥
Emotional Roller Coaster
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged expectations, feelings, God, poetry, self worth on May 29, 2012| 1 Comment »
click
click
click
click
ker-chunk
silence
then
screams
terror
delight
wind
whips
through my soul
twist
turn
dip
jump
upside down
inside out
laughter
joy
tears
sorrow
God is my safety harness
What Could Have Been
Posted in Healing, Poetry, tagged expectations, feelings, God, grief, letting go, loss, love, poetry, relationships, sadness on May 25, 2012| 2 Comments »
Sadness.
I’m sad.
Right?
I know I should be sad
And in many ways I am
But not in the ways –
Not for the things –
I am supposed to be.
I am sad for what wasn’t
not for the loss of what was
I am sad for the lost opportunities
I am sad for the relationship
that never really was
I am sad that my expectations
of what we could have been
were never realized.
Yes, I am sad.
And how my sadness manifests…
Well, there is no right way
There is no wrong way.
People grieve in different ways
People grieve for different things
Whose to say we aren’t all grieving
for what could have been?
I do know
that God sits right next to us
when we are sad.
No matter the reason, He sits.
He loves.
He hugs.
And it’s ok to be sad
for what could have been.