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I wandered the streets
looking for a home
looking to be welcomed
looking to be loved

You found me.

You took me in
gave me shelter
gave me love
gave me hope.

I ate the finest vittles
Slept warmly on your bed

I reveled in the gentle caresses
behind my ears, down my spine
along my underbelly
with tender fingertips
and feathery whispers

You told me
I was beautiful
You needed me
I was amazing
You wanted me
I was important.

Your loyal pet
through everything
and everywhere

Comforting you in hard times
Celebrating with you in the good

Listening to your every word
with genuine care and attention,
empathy and silent understanding

Fiercely protective
Genuinely devoted

You bathed me
with soap
and love
I felt special
and brave
and safe

I’d found my home.

But things changed.
You changed.

You stopped letting me inside
annoyed at my presence

You stopped feeding me
angry when I begged for scraps

You stopped loving me
withholding soft words and touches

You called me disgusting.

I tried to remind you
of all that I added to your life
of how much I loved you
and how much you needed me

But you didn’t remember.

Others around you
made sure I didn’t get inside
They kicked me, ignored me, starved me
they never liked you having me anyway.

Kick a dog enough times
eventually it gets the hint.

I don’t belong to you anymore.

I am no longer wanted,
needed, or special.
And there is
nothing
I can do
to change that.

So I wander off
a stray once again
looking for a home
where someone
will love me.

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I know sometimes I’m not easy.
I am a complicated woman
who knows what
a good relationship
can look like,
and that colors
my expectations.
I’m not wooed by
sweet-sounding words,
bold professions of love,
or grand romantic gestures…
I’m actually quite leery of them.
I am slow to jump into big decisions;
I like to follow my heart and my brain.
I’m often too serious, guarded, and pensive.
Heartbreak, loss and pain shape my view.
It sometimes takes work
to love me.
But I love
with my
whole heart,
I’m loyal,
I’m fierce,
and I’m worth it.

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Oh Creator,
Give me the desire and the ability

to forgive myself

for times of being unaware
and not seeing things as clearly as I do now

for times of seeing acceptance
in people instead of you

for times of being naive
getting caught in someone’s snares

for times my words or actions
didn’t match who I want myself to be

for times of being human
needing space to learn and heal

for times of needing help
letting go of past hurts and old patterns

Give me the ability, desire, and the courage
to be compassionate with myself
to take steps forward
to believe I am worthy
just as I am.

04.23b self forgiveness prayer

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Sometimes
I get so busy

making sure everyone
has what they need

making sure everything
gets done as it should

making sure everywhere
has been shopped or cleaned

that I forget to
STOP.

And I forget to
BE

making sure
I take care
of everyday me

It's OK to take care of me too

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magazines by Zela rgbstock.com

Too many things to read
Too many words to absorb

Too many things to write
Too many words to express

Too many things to do
Too many hopes to fulfill

Too many things to say
Too many people to help

Too many  things to achieve
Too many resolutions to realize

Too many expectations.

Who puts all this on me?
How did I get to this place?
Who is responsible?
How can it be fixed?
Who must take action?

Oh, Me.
All me.

So in one moment
with one choice

I can hit “Delete”
I can say “No”

I can throw them away
and change all the expectations.

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Oh glorious Creator,

You love me
when I am feeling (or acting) unlovable.

You hear me
when my thoughts are a jumbled mess.You love me when

You see me
when I try to hide in shame.

You love me
when I am moody and selfish.

You hold me
when I grieve devastating loss.

You protect me
when I am attacked by fear.

You love me
when I am afraid and alone.

You comfort me
when I don’t even know I’m sad.

You know me
when I am a confusing puddle to myself.

You love me
no matter what

I am
awed
amazed
thankful
joyful

that you do.

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Who told you
that we need long hair
lashes or nails
rosy pink cheeks
and hidden pores
to be a woman?

As a girlWho told you that you needed to shave?
I rushed to grow up
to be a woman
what I thought it was to be

sneaking eyeliner to school
cutting myself with mom’s razor
plucking, curling, crimping
scouring for the perfect shade
to be pretty

Who told me
that I needed color palates
pinks and purples
lotions and potions
creamy and pungent

to be a woman?

Who told me
that I had to shave?

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Bombarded daily
to define myself
by some worldly standardDon't let the world tell you that you need to do or be anything - you have worth just as you are.
of success
of beauty
of worth

Is my job good enough?
Am I in fashion?
Do I make enough money?
Does my hair look right?

Is my house acceptable?
How about my body?
Do I have the right friends?
Do I hang out in the best places?

Do I make everyone happy?
Does everyone like me?
Am I a good girl?

If I align my life
with what the world says
these standards should be

will I feel satisfied?
will I feel worthy?

Nope.

Because none of it
none of the stuff
none of the opinions
none of the ways in which the world wants to define me

none of it
makes me who I am
or adds any value
to my soul

For I am fearfully
and wonderfully made
Loved
and cherished
just as I am

Without all the stuff
Without being in style
Without pleasing anyone

For nothing I do,
nothing I have done,
and nothing that has been done to me
defines my worth

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Sometimes I feel trapped
by my own decisions

Times I said “Yes”
when I should have said “No”

Times I was silent
when I really wanted to talk

Times I said “Sure”
when I meant “Nope”

Times I stayed
when I really wanted to go

Times I said “OK”
when I wanted to say “No way”

Times I smiled
when I wanted to scream

Times.
So many times.

But here’s the thing
I must remember

I can change my decisions
at any time

and I’m never really trapped after all.

It's self care to say No

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When I feel alone
in a room crowded with people

When I feel panic
swelling in my gut

When I feel worry
creeping into my brain

When I feel uneasy in any way
I know the darkness of fear
is trying to get in

I know the dark one
is trying to break me down

But I am a child of light
I am loved
I am never alone
My life mapped
My purpose designed

And like a child
into a swimming pool
I must jump
with all my being
with childlike trust
and splash and play
in waters of uncertainty
without the flotation devices
of knowledge and control
yet faith and hope
keep me afloat

So when I feel fear, panic or worry
When I feel uncertain or out of control
It’s time to let go
to live in faith
to jump in the pool
to float in trust
surrounded by love

swimming pool

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