Dear God,
I know that sometimes you meet me
in the places I least expect
and how I think things should be
is not always the way you think they should be
So, I humbly ask you to just
be with me through this
I refuse to see myself as less than anyone else
because of this
but ask that you be with me, and meet me where I am
Help me to know that your plans are bigger
than what i think they should be
and that maybe
you will use these experiences in my life
to help others
and to bring me closer to you
And so when I feel sad
when I am depressed or anxious
I will not pray for healing
I will not pray for it to be lifted
I will sit in my feelings
knowing there is nothing wrong with them
I will accept your timing
and rejoice in my experiences
and know
there is nothing wrong with me
♥ Amen ♥
Know My Worth 
I really like this one …a lot! …
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Thank you, Sue! I believe it with my whole heart. xoxo
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Ah, yes – we are so apt to FIX how we feel rather than allowing how we feel to change us! Feelings need to be dealt with and felt – but not necessarily trusted! Nice heart-felt expression of real emotions. We often dismiss these as ungodly or not ‘right’ somehow. I believe with you that they need to be honestly and openly dealt with..
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Thank you, Melody – exactly! Why is it that Christian women (for some reason especially, or maybe just in my experience) think they are “bad” when depressed?
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There are a lot of stigmas to overcome in that department! The ‘church’ has done a poor job traditionally with depression – we are told we lack faith, or are somehow ‘lacking’ in other areas. My struggle with depression has had deep roots into a horrifying past – and can’t be overcome simply by mustering up a power I don’t possess! We are expected to perform well at home, at work, in our marriages, at our churches – and all with a smile, or there is something ‘wrong’ with us. Bah humbug! Feelings are God-given signals so that we can deal with whatever our underlying issues are – and there again, we almost never go deep enough to find the true issues because we are so apt to try to ‘fix’ things so we feel better! (Can you tell this is a pet peeve of mine?)
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Sing it, Melody! I do think we are told (somehow – maybe even directly) that it is a lack of faith. And frankly, that’s such a lie that it makes me angry. Depression usually does have deep roots, genetic predispositions, and chemical causes. We don’t tell people with high blood pressure to just “get over it” or “have more faith.” We need to stop condemning ourselves – respect our feelings, and accept ourselves as we are, just like God does. I love having a pet peeve soul sister in you, Melody!
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Unfortunately it takes ‘being there, doing that’ to get the insight on these tough issues. I myself would rather learn an easier way! 🙂 But I do know that God knows best and only brings me what He feels necessary to draw out my strongest qualities. Perhaps you and I can be a gentle means of educating others on the issues? I agree with you and it does make me angry the way ‘invisible’ wounds don’t get addressed with as much compassion, dedication, or correct theology as broken legs, which heal much faster and with less side-affects… Grr… That is a bit of what I was feeling when I wrote my ‘Invisible Woman’ poem…We will have to vent together! 🙂
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I liked it ❤
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