Radiating
love
light
peace
Embodying
joy
hope
faith
Embracing
freedom
release
healing
and
I’m gonna
let my light shine
Posts Tagged ‘self worth’
Let it Shine
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged faith, freedom, God, healing, hope, love, self acceptance, self worth, shine, this little light of mine on July 13, 2013| 2 Comments »
Truth
Posted in Spiritual Awakening, tagged being true to myself, belief, expectations, faith, God, Holy Spirit, letting go, my path, my truth, not perfect, peace, poetry, prayer, pressure, self worth, Source, trust on June 11, 2013| 9 Comments »
I want to live my truth
and yet…
I struggle to define it
what is real?
what speaks directly to my heart?
how do I define this life?
What is truth?
Others want to define truth for us
teachers, pastors, parents, friends
And for much of my life
I let them
and yet…
I don’t think I can
any longer
I feel fear
breaking molds
not meeting expectations
not fitting in
and yet…
I feel free
living authentically
living my truth
building my own faith
I will say
what it is I believe
I will determine
what is “right”
I will know
what God speaks to my heart
I will release
judgment and fear
I will be ready
to follow my heart
and all
that is revealed
Afraid of Anger
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged anger, anxiety, bullying, burdens, carrying others, depression, doubt, empowered, expectations, fear, fixing, guilt, health, hiding, know my worth, letting go, love, mental health, not perfect, poetry, pressure, relationships, responsible, self awareness, self esteem, self worth, shame, worry on March 22, 2013| 19 Comments »
You are angry with me
and my reaction
is fear
bewildered
loss
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know how to act
I don’t know how to be
and I feel
that it’s my fault
that it’s now my role
to soothe your anger
to fix the situation
to change myself
to hide in shame
I didn’t meet your expectations
I didn’t do things as you would have done
I didn’t know the right way to answer
I didn’t prevent this very moment
But then I remember
I am a grown woman
who has thoughts
and feelings
that are just as valid
as anyone else
And I remember
it’s not actually
my job
to fix your anger
your anger
is your feeling
and just because
you have a feeling
I am not required
to do anything
Trying to force me
to change – to do or be
what you want me to do or be
is bullying
Your anger belongs to you
and you have every right to feel it
You can believe it’s righteous
You can believe it’s justified
You can believe it requires action
And I can disagree.
If I change
I will change for me
If you change
You will change for you
and if we continue to disagree
and you continue to be angry with me
then our paths will change
Because I will no longer be
afraid of anger
The Fixer
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged anxiety, codependency, control, fixing, fret, give, giving, helpful, helping, ideas, letting go, loved, micromanage, needed, overbearing, poetry, problem solving, relationships, resourceful, self awareness, self worth, smart, solutions, take, wanted, worry, worth on March 8, 2013| 16 Comments »
Oh, here, let me
Oh here, how about like this
Oh here, I know what you can do
Oh here, I can help
Oh here, I can do that for you
Oh here, I can make it happen
Oh here, why don’t you do it like this…
Oh here, what if you…
Oh here, how about like this…
Oh here
let me
fix
everything
because
I’m the fixer
I can fix most anything
I have the best of ideas
and lots of solutions
because I am smart
and see things clearly
because I am helpful
and willing to assist
because I am giving
and have much to give
Yet
truly and deeply
if I look in my soul
I’m a fixer
to feel needed and wanted
and smart and resourceful
and important and liked
and loved
Yet
I am already all of these things
without fixing for you
so I will let you fix you
and maybe spend a little time
fixing me
Don’t Wanna
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged adult, anxiety, balance, bills, comfort, decisions, depression, expectations, food, inner child, letting go, mental health, pajamas, perfect, pressure, resistance, self worth, work on February 16, 2013| 10 Comments »
Sometimes I don’t wanna
be an adult
Sometimes I don’t want
to go to work
to pay the bills
to make important decisions
that impact others
Sometimes I don’t want
to be the responsible one
who “holds down the fort”
who takes care of everyone
who makes everything ok
Sometimes I wish
that I didn’t
know pain
know hurt
that I didn’t know
it always takes time
to heal
Sometimes I just want
to stand in the shower
until the hot water turns cold
and my hair is not yet clean
or better yet
sit in a tub
until wrinkled and shivering
shutting out the world
with the click of the door
Sometimes I just want
to lie on the couch
watch some numbing series
created in days long ago
wearing fuzzy animal pajamas
with 7up and Saltines
today comforting a soul
instead of a tummy
Sometimes I just want
to bury my fingers in warm dirt
sifting rocks from treasures
to cup my hands around a little moth
feel it flutter then fly away
to lie flat on the lawn
watching the clouds become stories
have conversation with ladybugs
and worry for her children
But I must find balance
for I am an adult
I pay the bills
to keep my comforts
I go to work
to make a difference
I make decisions
to take care of others
who have days
when they don’t wanna
Boundaries
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged boundaries, boyfriend, caring, dad, daughter, decisions, doormat, expectations, feelings, friends, friendship, girlfriend, give, health, hope, husband, limits, love, mean, men, mom, nice, others, parent, pushover, receive, relationships, romance, self, self esteem, self worth, selfish, son, thoughts, wife, women, worth on February 9, 2013| 10 Comments »
I’ve been doing a little thinking about boundary setting lately…
What is your perspective?
Caretaking
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged caretaking, choices, codependency, control, doubt, expectations, family, feelings, love, men, perfect, poetry, pressure, relationships, respect, self awareness, self worth, women on January 16, 2013| 6 Comments »
Interesting
how I am always trying
to take care of you
how I strain and sweat
to make sure you are ok
to make sure you are happy
to make sure your feelings aren’t
hurt
regardless of how
I am feeling
But that’s not my job
it’s not up to me
to take care of you
You are grown
You are an adult
You can make your own decisions
You can make your own choices
You can handle
your own consequences
I don’t need to be involved
I don’t need to monitor
I don’t need to
make sure
everything is ok
Yet I do.
No Matter What
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged accountability, bad, being, BFF, bread winner, child, coach, comparison, considerate, daughter, disappointment, disobedient, doubt, encourage, expectations, failure, father, friend, friendship, good, guide, hope, husband, instructor, job, job title, listen, love, loving, mentor, mother, not perfect, obedient, parent, partner, perfect, poetry, pressure, provider, relationships, role model, roles, self esteem, self worth, son, spouse, teacher, validation, value, wife, work, worth on January 6, 2013| 6 Comments »
Being a good person
loving and caring
Being a good teacher
guiding and imparting
Being a good partner
considerate and helpful
Being a good provider
feeding and sheltering
Being a good coach
available and accountable
Being a good child
obedient and achieving
Being a good parent
shaping and modeling
Being a good friend
listening and encouraging
All good things
Yes, indeed
Yet
not one of my roles
not one of the things I do
no matter how “good”
I am at it
no matter how “bad”
I am at it
not one of these things
determines my worth
I have worth.
I have value.
No matter what.
My plan for 2013
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Praise, Self worth, tagged 2013, calm, control, expectations, faith, goals, God, guide, health, hope, let go, letting go, love, meditation, not perfect, patience, peace, plans, poetry, prayer, quiet the mind, resolutions, self worth, strength, trust, waiting on January 1, 2013| 13 Comments »
Dear God,
With all my heart,
This year
2013
I give to you
Every year
I spend so much time
setting goals
figuring and strategizing
planning and organizing
mapping and preparing
for what?
illusion of control
This year
2013
I want to let go
of my need to control
of knowing
HOW
everything will turn out
of knowing
WHICH
is the “right” way
of knowing
WHERE
my path winds
I want to
let go of knowing
every little thing
This year
2013
I want to rest
and let you
do the figuring
the mapping
planning
And if I let you
You will guide me
and hold my hand
You will lead me
and lift the light
You will carry me
in your arms
You will give me the strength
to let it all go
This year
2013
my only plan
is to have no plan
of my own
and God,
you do all the knowing
A Lonely Day
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged alone, book, celebration, expectations, God, lonely, lonliness, never alone, peace, poetry, pressure, quiet, rain, reading, relationships, self worth, solitude, tea, worth on December 27, 2012| 11 Comments »
Today could seem
a lonely day
All excitement is done
All furvor has gone
Leftovers are scavenged
Only fruitcake cookies
wait to be eaten
I sit
solemn and quiet
no music or laughter
fills this space
Only rain
taps a melody
on the window
Christmas lights
twinkle a delicate reminder
it’s time to be put away
Today could seem
a lonely day
But
God is here
always up for a chat
He sits in the armchair
and sips spiced tea
And
a good book
waits for my attention
a thrilling tale
of intrigue
and human nature
So
I sit
with adventures awaiting
knowing that today
Only could seem
a lonely day
Know My Worth 