January 16, 2013 by Christine
Interesting
how I am always trying
to take care of you
how I strain and sweat
to make sure you are ok
to make sure you are happy
to make sure your feelings aren’t
hurt
regardless of how
I am feeling
But that’s not my job
it’s not up to me
to take care of you
You are grown
You are an adult
You can make your own decisions
You can make your own choices
You can handle
your own consequences
I don’t need to be involved
I don’t need to monitor
I don’t need to
make sure
everything is ok
Yet I do.
Posted in Healing, Self worth | Tagged caretaking, choices, codependency, control, doubt, expectations, family, feelings, love, men, perfect, poetry, pressure, relationships, respect, self awareness, self worth, women | 6 Comments »
January 6, 2013 by Christine
Being a good person
loving and caring
Being a good teacher
guiding and imparting
Being a good partner
considerate and helpful
Being a good provider
feeding and sheltering
Being a good coach
available and accountable
Being a good child
obedient and achieving
Being a good parent
shaping and modeling
Being a good friend
listening and encouraging
All good things
Yes, indeed
Yet
not one of my roles
not one of the things I do
no matter how “good”
I am at it
no matter how “bad”
I am at it
not one of these things
determines my worth
I have worth.
I have value.
No matter what.
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth | Tagged accountability, bad, being, BFF, bread winner, child, coach, comparison, considerate, daughter, disappointment, disobedient, doubt, encourage, expectations, failure, father, friend, friendship, good, guide, hope, husband, instructor, job, job title, listen, love, loving, mentor, mother, not perfect, obedient, parent, partner, perfect, poetry, pressure, provider, relationships, role model, roles, self esteem, self worth, son, spouse, teacher, validation, value, wife, work, worth | 6 Comments »
January 1, 2013 by Christine
Dear God,
With all my heart,
This year
2013
I give to you
Every year
I spend so much time
setting goals
figuring and strategizing
planning and organizing
mapping and preparing
for what?
illusion of control
This year
2013
I want to let go
of my need to control
of knowing
HOW
everything will turn out
of knowing
WHICH
is the “right” way
of knowing
WHERE
my path winds
I want to
let go of knowing
every little thing
This year
2013
I want to rest
and let you
do the figuring
the mapping
planning
And if I let you
You will guide me
and hold my hand
You will lead me
and lift the light
You will carry me
in your arms
You will give me the strength
to let it all go
This year
2013
my only plan
is to have no plan
of my own
and God,
you do all the knowing
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Praise, Self worth | Tagged 2013, calm, control, expectations, faith, goals, God, guide, health, hope, let go, letting go, love, meditation, not perfect, patience, peace, plans, poetry, prayer, quiet the mind, resolutions, self worth, strength, trust, waiting | 13 Comments »
December 27, 2012 by Christine
Today could seem
a lonely day
All excitement is done
All furvor has gone
Leftovers are scavenged
Only fruitcake cookies
wait to be eaten
I sit
solemn and quiet
no music or laughter
fills this space
Only rain
taps a melody
on the window
Christmas lights
twinkle a delicate reminder
it’s time to be put away
Today could seem
a lonely day
But
God is here
always up for a chat
He sits in the armchair
and sips spiced tea
And
a good book
waits for my attention
a thrilling tale
of intrigue
and human nature
So
I sit
with adventures awaiting
knowing that today
Only could seem
a lonely day
Posted in Poetry, Self worth | Tagged alone, book, celebration, expectations, God, lonely, lonliness, never alone, peace, poetry, pressure, quiet, rain, reading, relationships, self worth, solitude, tea, worth | 11 Comments »
December 22, 2012 by Christine
We are celebrating the Fruit of the Spirit
this week on the Know My Worth Facebook page.
Which is your favorite?
Which is hardest to connect?
Galatians 5:22
all photos are original ⓒ knowmyworth.com
Posted in Photo quotes, Praise | Tagged Bible, faithfulness, fruit of the spirit, galatians, gentleness, God, goodness, joy, kindness, love, patience, peace, self control | 8 Comments »
December 16, 2012 by Christine
Do this
Do that
Say this
Say that
Think this
Think that
Buy this
Buy that
It’s gotta be done
It’s gotta be perfect
It’s gotta be just right
It’s gotta be now
for you to love me
BUT
that’s not the truth
AND
I take a deep breath
SO
I can slow my pace
I can stop the spin
I can be myself
I can sit still
and breathe
FOR
no matter what I
do
say
think
buy
I have worth
I am loved
and
I can rest
Posted in Healing, Self worth | Tagged anxiety, breathe, expectations, not perfect, peace, perfect, pressure, relationships, self worth, stillness | 12 Comments »
December 7, 2012 by Christine
Today I am honored to be a guest blogger
over at The Monster in Your Closet.
If you don’t yet know Deborah,
she is a funny, authentic, loving soul
who most recently made me
both grin and weep with
Seeing my dog again, thanks to L’il D
My contribution
to her thankfulness campaign
is an ode to Hunger,
for in spite of fears about it
I am thankful for it.
I hope you enjoy it,
and get to know a little bit of Deb
while you’re there
Posted in Healing | Tagged Deborah Bryan, faith, food, God, guest blog, hunger, love, relationships, thankful | 2 Comments »
December 2, 2012 by Christine
Delight yourself in the Lord
and He will give you the desires of your heart
Oh, how often
do we read
this promise
dreaming of
diamonds
and Playstations
and new jobs
or perfect spouses
dreaming
shiny new toys
are on their way
for good girls and boys
But
I don’t think it means
anything such as that
For when we truly delight
in God
when we truly focus
on Him
and all that He is,
everything else
melts away
We stop caring about
new toys
new jobs
new talents
new things
And He becomes
the only desire
the only delight
and all that we need
in this world
Posted in Poetry, Praise | Tagged answers, Bible, desire, desires of your heart, expectations, God, love, perfect, prayer, Psalm 37, Psalms, relationships, thankfulness | 10 Comments »
November 29, 2012 by Christine
Why am I always
so focused on me?
focused on how I feel
or how you don’t
notice
When was the last time
I asked about you?
Why am I sitting
in a deep hole
a pit
of myself
It’s dark in here
I am alone
focused on myself
on me me me
It’s time to bring in some light
and all I need to do
is ask about you
Posted in Healing, Self worth | Tagged busy, friend, friendship, life, love, men, narcissistic, not perfect, others, perfect, relationships, remembering, self absorbed, self worth, thankfulness, thoughtfulness, women | 9 Comments »
November 23, 2012 by Christine
Sometimes
I have to say no.
It’s important for me to do so
and it’s being true
to what I am really feeling
So I say no
not today
not now
I’m sorry, I can’t
But then the guilt.
It washes over me
floods my thoughts
churns in my belly
How can I say no?
They need me
need my help
need my service
and maybe need God through me
so the thoughts keep spinning
that I’m just being selfish
and would it have really hurt me
to drop what I’m doing
to add more to my plate
and would it have really hurt me
to give one more afternoon
because people give to me
and so shouldn’t I give back
all that I have?
all that I am?
but then I remember
what I can be like
when I don’t take care of myself
the tailspin I can create
the emotional states
the physical decline
and then I remember
that when people give to me
give in healthy ways
it doesn’t require
of loss of myself
to them
it is a gift
and then I remember
that setting boundaries
establishing limits
makes me MORE able to help
more able to be present
more able to be me
in those times that
are appropriate
and that’s woman –
that’s who
they were asking for
in the first place
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth | Tagged boundaries, expectations, guilt, helping, lose myself, perfect, pressure, relationships, respect, worry, worth | 14 Comments »
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