Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged behavior, comparison, doubt, expectations, feelings, God, God's love, lies, poetry, pressure, self worth, your opinion on January 4, 2012| 7 Comments »
You can’t make me
say any certain words
feel any certain feelings
think any certain thoughts
look any certain style
act any certain way
be any certain woman
You can
criticize
cajole
critique
advise
intimidate
mock
“help”
but still
You can’t
make me
anything.
I choose
my actions
reactions
I choose
to know
who I am
separate from
who you think
I am
instead
connected to
who God thinks
I am
Posted in Praise, Self worth, tagged 2012, answers, God, God's grace, God's love, gratitude, letting go, new year, praise, prayer, self worth, thankfulness on December 31, 2011| 2 Comments »
Dear Heavenly Father,
A new year approaches
I thank you for the opportunity it brings
to see you better
to know you deeper
to let go of my need for control
let go of my need to know all the answers
before I even know the questions
another opportunity to start fresh
to learn something new
to love
to trust
to sing
to sit in your arms
Thank you for loving me
even though I don’t understand it all the time
I know it’s real
and I will cherish it.
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged 2012, goals, God, habits, improvement, inner turmoil, letting go, new year, poetry, pressure, resolutions, self worth on December 26, 2011| 1 Comment »
It’s the time of year
for me to IMPROVE
So what will it be
this year…
eat more veggies?
exercise more?
read the entire bible?
quit a bad habit?
volunteer?
organize all the closets?
remodel the kitchen?
go back to school?
start a new hobby?
clean that garage?
finish a 1/2-done craft project?
get out of debt?
do more of this?
do less of that?
Stop.
How about…
Be kind to myself.
Know that I am loved.
Sit in the arms of the Father.
And
maybe
finally
this year
I will
know my worth.
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged Christmas, expectations, gifts, God's grace, inner turmoil, issues, letting go, poetry, self worth, trust on December 22, 2011| Leave a Comment »
Please
don’t buy me anything
don’t get me a gift
so much turmoil surrounds it
it’s just not fun
Agonizing issues with gifts.
What if I don’t get you something?
What if mine’s not good enough?
What if I don’t really like it?
What if I disappoint you with my reaction?
what do you want in return?
only gratitude?
thing is,
I don’t really
believe that
I seem so ungrateful
Almost hateful
Undeserving
Unworthy
D I S T R U S T I N G.
I haven’t always been this way
I don’t have to be this way
I choose not to be this way
Can I let go of my issues with gifts?
Can I accept the greatest gift of all?
God’s grace
I am worthy.
I can trust.
And I thank you.
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged forgiveness, God's grace, God's love, love, perfect, poetry, self worth on December 17, 2011| 3 Comments »
Even though you didn’t…
Treat kindly
Encourage unabashedly
Think thoughtfully
Protect fiercely
Wait patiently
Speak sweetly
Touch gently
Listen compassionately
Give unselfishly
Trust completely
Love unconditionally
And I deserve it
all
God can do it
all
You’re not perfect
I’m not perfect
But with God’s love
and grace
I’m ok anyway
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged Christmas, God's gift, perfectionism, poetry, pressure, self worth, worry on December 13, 2011| 2 Comments »
It’s Christmastime!
Gotta find the perfect tree
Gotta put up the perfect lights
Gotta buy the perfect gifts
at the perfect sale prices
Gotta set up the perfect decorations
Gotta get the perfect outfits
Gotta bake the perfect cookies
Gotta cook the perfect meal
Gotta make the most perfect of all memories
Gotta pause.
Christ was the perfect gift, given to us by God,
so that we don’t have to be perfect.
We are free
We don’t need to do anything
We are valuable, loved, cherished, and complete
not by what we find, get, set, make
but just in who we are
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged expectations, God's love, letting go, lies, poetry, self worth, value on December 8, 2011| 2 Comments »
Sometimes
when things don’t go exactly as I thought they would go
for whatever reason
I attack myself.
I beat myself up.
I wonder why it happened
the way that it did,
and in the pit of myself,
believe that it’s my fault.
Expectations. Evil Expectations.
When they are not met,
by others
or myself
Somehow, that instantly reflects on my worth.
The self condemnation starts
It must be that I’m not good enough,
It must be that I did something wrong.
But that’s a lie.
I know the truth.
I know that no matter what I do,
No matter how I imagine things
No matter how things happen
I am loved.
I am valued.
I am precious.
And I don’t have to meet my own expectations,
or yours,
to be that way.
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged doubt, fat, feelings, God, God's love, poetry, self worth, value, worth on December 4, 2011| 2 Comments »
Ever have those days
when you are just
feeling fat?
Clothes don’t fit their best
The mirror isn’t being kind
Energy is low
And you start picking on yourself
It’s not really about fatness
because it happens to us at any shape or size
It’s about self-worth
Knowing that we have value
regardless of
ANYTHING
We have to break the cycle of negative self-talk
Stop listening to the lies
Stop getting sucked into the game
Reminder:
I have value
I have a beautiful soul
I am loved by God
I am cherished by God
He made me a perfect creation
I need to stay in touch with that love
share that love with others
focus on the things that are truly important
and get over myself
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged answers, doubt, God, letting go, poetry, problems, self worth, worry on November 30, 2011| 4 Comments »
So many times
I act like I have to figure everything out
on my own
The burden rests on me
The answers must come
from me
Why don’t I know?
What’s wrong with me?
People are expecting me to know…
But really, they aren’t – I am.
I don’t have to know
I don’t have to figure everything out
I don’t have to know how it will all turn out
I have to turn it over to God.
I have to step away.
I have to stop trying to do it all myself.
I am not by myself.
God will take over; He will handle it
I just have to let him
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged forgiveness, God's grace, perfectionism, poetry, self, worth on November 26, 2011| Leave a Comment »
So I’m not perfect
Is that a surprise?
maybe only to myself.
In my mind
I know
that no one is perfect.
and yet
I expect myself to be?
I beat myself up
when I make a mistake
I agonize over what I
should have
done differently.
I need to learn how to forgive myself
for not being perfect.
One of the hardest things to do
and yet
I know
it is a key
to a peaceful heart.
So I chose to forgive myself
And ask God to help me
release myself
from the need to be perfect
for today at least
Know My Worth 