Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged anxiety, breathe, expectations, not perfect, peace, perfect, pressure, relationships, self worth, stillness on December 16, 2012| 12 Comments »
Do this
Do that
Say this
Say that
Think this
Think that
Buy this
Buy that
It’s gotta be done
It’s gotta be perfect
It’s gotta be just right
It’s gotta be now
for you to love me
BUT
that’s not the truth
AND
I take a deep breath
SO
I can slow my pace
I can stop the spin
I can be myself
I can sit still
and breathe
FOR
no matter what I
do
say
think
buy
I have worth
I am loved
and
I can rest
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged busy, friend, friendship, life, love, men, narcissistic, not perfect, others, perfect, relationships, remembering, self absorbed, self worth, thankfulness, thoughtfulness, women on November 29, 2012| 9 Comments »
Why am I always
so focused on me?
focused on how I feel
or how you don’t
notice
When was the last time
I asked about you?
Why am I sitting
in a deep hole
a pit
of myself
It’s dark in here
I am alone
focused on myself
on me me me
It’s time to bring in some light
and all I need to do
is ask about you
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged codependency, expectations, God, light, love, poetry, self worth on November 13, 2012| 17 Comments »
My river of codependency
deep and powerful
I tumble along
swept away
with the current
old habits
can
flow unheeded
I grasp at branches
looking for my self worth
along this twisting river
If I help you, will I feel valued?
If I lead this group, will I feel treasured?
If I do a good job, will I feel needed?
If I love you, will you love me?
And when you don’t need me
the grass pulls from its roots
and when situations don’t meet my expectations
the branch snaps from the tree
So branches
slip from my fingers
grasses and roots
pull from the edge
I pitch and twist
bumping into rocks
floundering through rapids
clinging to scraps
of debris
confused
and afraid
And then I remember
I control this river
I do not need to grasp and cling
to debris or branches
My worth is internal
the love of God
spreads from my fingers
light pours around me
and creates a raft
the water slows
I’m buoyed by light
and I float
watching the banks
pass on by
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged 3-word wisdom, enjoy life, inspiration, lessons learned, letting go, love, self worth, thankfulness, wisdom on November 8, 2012| 8 Comments »
Hello friends!
Today is my 40th birthday, and I’ve been having fun over the last two weeks celebrating the one year anniversary of this blog and Facebook page along with this upcoming day.
So how do I celebrate?
By celebrating wisdom.
First, I honored this little phrase as it was the one that started it all for me:
And this got me thinking; I seem to like my wisdom in small nibbles.
Such powerful things can be said in short phrases.
Words that make us think, images that bring us smiles
And now I have fallen in love with this concept.
So much so,
that I have started
another blog
dedicated to little bites of 3-word wisdom.
If little nibbles with your cup of tea too, come on over here to sign up.
I’m posting one nugget each day (so far), and I think you might enjoy them.
I know I am.
Thanks so much
to each of you
for being here
with me
on this journey!
❤ Love, Light and Blessings ❤
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged anxiety, doubt, expectations, God's love, letting go, not perfect, pressure, pretending, self worth on November 2, 2012| 8 Comments »
I waffle
acknowledge that I’m not feeling great
and wonder if I should stay home today
but then shake my head
to clear that thought
and say
Suck it up!
Charge Ahead!
So I try
to suck it up
to do the daily routine
to meet expectations
Yet I find
I’m still screaming
on the inside
too many thoughts
but nothing coherent
spinning
unsafe
relentless
life must go on
I must try to function
or at least pretend
Does anyone see through me?
My insides scream
“I can’t function!”
Yet here I am
walking to the front entrance
I remembered to bring a snack
but didn’t bother to match my clothes
or style my hair
Because it’s all a show
and I can only prepare
so many of the props
sew together so many of the costumes
paint so many of the backdrops
before my makeup
starts to melt
under the hot lights
But I walk in and smile
say good morning to all
I ask about your weekend
I get started on my tasks
and inside
I’m still screaming
AND THEN
I remind myself that
even though I feel this way
even though I don’t know what to do
even though I am lost and unsure
even though I don’t have all the answers
even though tomorrow may be worse
none of this impacts my worth
none of it speaks to my value
I don’t have to stop
screaming
in order to have worth
I don’t have to stop
pretending
in order to have worth
I am valuable just as I am
clothes mismatched
hair askew
internally disjointed
God loves me
exactly as I am
exactly this minute
and He sits with me
and comforts me
through anxiety
And in a few moments
or maybe a day or two
it just might
be better
an answer may come
the path may become clear
I may know what to do
I may feel better
I may, just may,
remember my worth
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged changing someone, codependency, expectations, letting go, love, potential, reflection, relationships, self worth on October 25, 2012| 13 Comments »
Heartsick
and frustrated
when we can see
that people could be
so much more
so much bigger
so much greater
so much happier
if they only choose
to let go
to let go of some of their demons
some of their own insecurities
some of their own self-hatred
we can’t do it for them
and
it’s unimaginable for me
to let go of the HOPE
of anyone’s potential
if only he would ___
things would be awesome
maybe I could just ___
and it would all be ok
but I have to realize
that I can’t
I can’t fix it.
I can’t fix it for anyone
other than me
And so I must move on
without him
and focus on seeing
my own potential
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged assertiveness, comparison, expectations, faith, pressure, self worth on October 19, 2012| 7 Comments »
Only I can know my own experience.
Only I can know my own direction.
My path is probably different from yours –
it is mine after all.
Walk with me, add comfort and company,
but please, never tell me I’m doing it wrong.
I may not always be “right”
I may sometimes get a little lost
but that’s all
part of my journey
and none of it
is ever wrong
It’s my path
and only I
can say where it goes.
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged alone, anxiety, God, lies, love, never alone, Psalms, scared, self worth, whispers and lies on October 14, 2012| 4 Comments »
When I feel anxious,
fearful and dismayed,
what is the lie that is getting in?
That I am not safe
That I am alone
That I am unloved
When I feel lethargic,
listless and drained,
what is the lie that is getting in?
That I am living without purpose
That I am alone
That I am unloved
When I feel blue,
cloudy and detached,
what is the lie that is getting in?
That I am not worthy
That I am alone
That I am unloved
BUT
Not one
None
Zero
of these thoughts are true
Lies and falsehoods
whispered in my ear
by demons perhaps
whispered through my mind
old stories replayed
through a child’s lens
SO
I make a choice
with an adult mind
and knowledge of truth
I will not listen
to those whispers
FOR
deep in my soul I know
TRUTH
I am not alone
Instead
I am loved beyond measure
by a God
who
cradles my heart
who
swaddles my soul
and carries me
away from whispers
and lies
AND
I will not feel anxious
listless or blue
For I am not alone
Posted in Photo quotes, Self worth, tagged day of the girl, empowerment, equality, freedom, international, self worth on October 11, 2012| Leave a Comment »
Today is declared an International Day of the Girl Child
I hope that one day
all girls, all over the world
can be
anything
and
everything
they want to be
Posted in Healing, tagged cigarettes, goodbye, healing, humor, quit smoking, self worth, smoking, thankful on October 6, 2012| 21 Comments »
It’s been a year
since I cut you from my life
It was important to see you go
I needed to say goodbye
You were no good for me
What you made me do
was poisonous
What you made me feel
was just an escape
The last several years
I kept you a secret
sneaking in a moment or two with you
whenever I could be unseen
be undiscovered
But oh
how I do miss you at times!
You brought me comfort
and made me feel safe
when I felt anxious or unsure
you were a part of my every day
But the safety was false
the security wasn’t true
You actually heightened my anxiety
and made me unwell
And so you had to go
because I knew
you were no good for me
You didn’t align
with who I am
or what I value
You weren’t meant to be a part of who I am
and I needed to say goodbye
Thanks for the good times
but I’m glad you are gone
goodbye
dear cigarettes
goodbye
Know My Worth 