My river of codependency
deep and powerful
I tumble along
swept away
with the current
old habits
can
flow unheeded
I grasp at branches
looking for my self worth
along this twisting river
If I help you, will I feel valued?
If I lead this group, will I feel treasured?
If I do a good job, will I feel needed?
If I love you, will you love me?
And when you don’t need me
the grass pulls from its roots
and when situations don’t meet my expectations
the branch snaps from the tree
So branches
slip from my fingers
grasses and roots
pull from the edge
I pitch and twist
bumping into rocks
floundering through rapids
clinging to scraps
of debris
confused
and afraid
And then I remember
I control this river
I do not need to grasp and cling
to debris or branches
My worth is internal
the love of God
spreads from my fingers
light pours around me
and creates a raft
the water slows
I’m buoyed by light
and I float
watching the banks
pass on by
Know My Worth 