My river of codependency
deep and powerful
I tumble along
swept away
with the current
old habits
can
flow unheeded
I grasp at branches
looking for my self worth
along this twisting river
If I help you, will I feel valued?
If I lead this group, will I feel treasured?
If I do a good job, will I feel needed?
If I love you, will you love me?
And when you don’t need me
the grass pulls from its roots
and when situations don’t meet my expectations
the branch snaps from the tree
So branches
slip from my fingers
grasses and roots
pull from the edge
I pitch and twist
bumping into rocks
floundering through rapids
clinging to scraps
of debris
confused
and afraid
And then I remember
I control this river
I do not need to grasp and cling
to debris or branches
My worth is internal
the love of God
spreads from my fingers
light pours around me
and creates a raft
the water slows
I’m buoyed by light
and I float
watching the banks
pass on by
I love this, Christine!
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Thank you, Annie 🙂
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What a beautiful way to chronicle the journey from codependency to wellness, a healthy perspective! Love this one…
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Thank you Melody! As long as we remember we have the raft, we can use it. 🙂
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The trick is in remembering it!! 🙂
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😀 exactly!
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I think about all the times I’ve taken on responsibilities I don’t want just to feel needed and worthy, and it sort of makes me cringe. Ya know? Like you, I’m understanding it better, and not needing to find my worth in the approval of others, but it’s taken some hard swimming against this inner current! Loved this!
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I so know what you mean about the cringing, my friend. And we need to not beat ourselves up for that part of it either. We were coping in the best ways we knew how – grasping at grasses – before we KNEW the power we have inside of us. The grace and strength of God does the swimming for us, if we just rest. xoxo
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I have jsut nominated to the sunshine award plesae see here: http://utesmile.wordpress.com/2012/11/14/sunshine-another-award-woohoo/
love your blog!
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How sweet of you! Thanks so much. I’m so glad you are here! 🙂
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Thanks for your kind words, it is great to read enjoyable blogs, which bring kindness and happines in each others world.xx
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This is so beautifully done. Thank you for saying what so many of us feel.
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Thank you so!
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Hi Knowmyworth,
Just wanted to give you a little something to say thank you for all the support on my blog. 🙂 ~ AG http://boundaryninjatales.com/2012/11/15/my-first-ever-blog-award/
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thank you! 🙂
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I nominated you for the sunshine award see my blog for details
http://www.onthebrighterside.net
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Thank you, Sara! That is so very sweet of you! xoxo
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