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Feeling Fat

Ever have those days
when you are just
feeling fat?

Clothes don’t fit their best
The mirror isn’t being kind
Energy is low
And you start picking on yourself

It’s not really about fatness
because it happens to us at any shape or size

It’s about self-worth
Knowing that we have value
regardless of
ANYTHING

We have to break the cycle of negative self-talk
Stop listening to the lies
Stop getting sucked into the game

Reminder:
I have value
I have a beautiful soul
I am loved by God
I am cherished by God
He made me a perfect creation

I need to stay in touch with that love
share that love with others

focus on the things that are truly important
and get over myself

But I Need to Know

So many timesLetting Go
I act like I have to figure everything out
on my own

The burden rests on me
The answers must come
from me

Why don’t I know?
What’s wrong with me?
People are expecting me to know…

But really, they aren’t – I am.

I don’t have to know
I don’t have to figure everything out
I don’t have to know how it will all turn out

I have to turn it over to God.
I have to step away.
I have to stop trying to do it all myself.
I am not by myself.

God will take over; He will handle it
I just have to let him

So I’m not perfect

So I’m not perfect
Is that a surprise?
maybe only to myself.

In my mind
I know
that no one is perfect.
and yet
I expect myself to be?

I beat myself up
when I make a mistake
I agonize over what I 
should have

done differently.

I need to learn how to forgive myself
for not being perfect.

One of the hardest things to do
and yet
I know
it is a key
to a peaceful heart.

So I chose to forgive myself
And ask God to help me
release myself
from the need to be perfect
for today at least

I rejoice and give thanks

I am thankful

His Grace

Dear Heavenly Father

Thank you each day

For seeing my heart and bringing me joy

For knowing my fears and bringing me comfort

For always being with me

For loving me so dearly and seeing me as flawless

For wanting me to see myself as you do

Your Grace shines upon me

Your Glory shines through me

friendly conversation
chit chat
laughter

wait

what’s that?
you don’t agree with my opinion?
uh – oh
what now?
why did I say that?
I must be wrong!
I must not know what I’m talking about!
I must find a way to fix this!

wait

I don’t need to fix anything.
I’m allowed to have differing opinions.
It’s ok when we don’t agree.
What I think counts for something.

Because I count for something
I have value
I am loved

And even if God Himself disagrees with me,
He still loves me.

Celebrate Me?

Sometimes I struggle
when people make a fuss
It’s just my birthday after all.

Anxiety arises
with their best wishes

Don’t look at me
Don’t notice me
I can’t be worth this attention

But that’s a lie.

God created each of us to be unique and treasured.
I have no problem celebrating others,
It’s time to joyfully realize that I deserve the same.

I am perfectEvery time I get excited about something creative I am doing,
When I get energized and encouraged,

A short time later, I see how someone else is doing the same thing.
Only, Sara is doing it better
Gina is doing it more often
Marie has been doing it longer

An evil little voice inside says…
They must be more in line with God‘s path.

That’s a lie.

God has an individualized plan for each and every one of us.  He doesn’t look at us standing next to Sara, Gina, or Marie and say, “hmmm – if only you were as good as Gina…”

God has a desire for a special and personal relationship with ME.
He cares about ME. He wants to know ME.

Comparison is the thief of Joy.
I will remember this today and KEEP my Joy.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

Why am I “Sorry?”

Why do I say “I’m sorry” when I have done nothing wrong?

It’s especially rotten when I say it
after you have hurt me
When you should be apologizing.

Do I feel guilt?
Do I feel shame?
Do I feel pity?

Something in me wants to make you feel better.
But what about how I feel?

I don’t have to be sorry when I have done nothing wrong.
I don’t have to be sorry when you hurt me.
I don’t have to accept the feelings of guilt, the feelings of shame, the feelings of pity.
Those feelings are toxic.

I will not allow you to try to make me to feel sorry when I have done nothing wrong.
I have value.

I’m not sorry
and that’s ok.

Am I Valuable?

When I don’t know my value
When I don’t recognize
(or appreciate)
My own strengths and talents
My life is not all it could be.

My doubt of my worth has an impact on how I live my life.
My doubt of my worth has an impact on my interactions with others.
My doubt of my worth has an impact on God, and all He has planned for me.

I have a desire to live my life to the fullest.
No longer will I hold back.
It’s time.

Time to be open.
Time to take risks.
Time to acknowledge all that is good in me.
Time to offer my value to others.
Time to become all that I can be.

I am worth it
And so are you.