Posted in Photo quotes, Praise, tagged comfort, faith, God, God's grace, God's love, heart, love, poetry, prayer, thankfulness on July 8, 2012| 5 Comments »
Create in me a clean heart, O God
wash away my negative thoughts
scrub my mind to a sparkle
Renew my connection with you
holding me in your arms
gathering me in your lap
so that all I see
is you
Restore unto me
the joy of you
you have saved me
you have freed me
you love me
Remind me
of your grace
Remind me
of your love
Refresh my spirit
with your presence
You are always by my side
Posted in Photo quotes, Self worth, tagged expectations, love, perfect, poetry, pressure, self worth, waiting on July 3, 2012| 9 Comments »
I don’t have to be
perfect
to make the world a better place
to offer something
to you
My flaws
My mistakes
They will surface
often when I least expect them
And yet
making a mistake
doing it “wrong”
showing my imperfections
These are not reasons
to give up
Instead
these are opportunities
to be genuine
to be vulnerable
to try again
If I wait
to be perfect
or even “better“
People will miss out on
all that I am today
and this gal
has something to give
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged expectations, feelings, letting go, love, memories, poetry, self pity, self worth on July 1, 2012| 5 Comments »
Sometimes
I want
to just feel
sorry for myself
Oh, poor me.
I don’t have this
I don’t have that
or even more likely…
I didn’t have this
I didn’t have that
I was robbed
I was cheated
I don’t want this portion
Life is unfair
Oh, poor me.
All the things I didn’t have
All the memories that aren’t ideal
All the mistakes that have been made
All the experiences, good and bad
All of the challenges I face each day
Creates the woman I am today
and I like me
except when I’m whining
about oh, poor me
Posted in Healing, Photo quotes, Poetry, tagged expectations, God, just be, letting go, poetry, prayer, waiting, worry on June 16, 2012| 2 Comments »
Hi God,
So, um, what’s the plan?
Where to next?
What steps to take?
What things do I need to do?
God,
don’t you see
that if I know the plan
I can start?
I can start making lists
I can start fixing problems
I can start moving mountains
I can start doing…
Oh.
I see.
You want me to rest in you.
You want me to hand it over to you.
Wait,
you don’t need me to plan?
you don’t need me to fix?
You’ve got it handled?
You sure you don’t need my help?
But
I have some great ideas…
Oh, well, Ok.
I will wait.
I will be right here
and
I will let you
do your thing
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged hiding, love, no more, perfect, poetry, self worth, shine, waiting on June 2, 2012| 6 Comments »
I see you
for you
You
are amazing
Who you are
your love
your compassion
your heart
your mind
you make an impact
you make a difference
you light up this world
in ways you may never know
no more
hiding
sitting back
waiting
peeking at life
it’s time to shine
for
you are amazing
and
I see you
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged expectations, feelings, God, poetry, self worth on May 29, 2012| 1 Comment »
click
click
click
click
ker-chunk
silence
then
screams
terror
delight
wind
whips
through my soul
twist
turn
dip
jump
upside down
inside out
laughter
joy
tears
sorrow
God is my safety harness
Posted in Healing, Poetry, tagged expectations, feelings, God, grief, letting go, loss, love, poetry, relationships, sadness on May 25, 2012| 2 Comments »
Sadness.
I’m sad.
Right?
I know I should be sad
And in many ways I am
But not in the ways –
Not for the things –
I am supposed to be.
I am sad for what wasn’t
not for the loss of what was
I am sad for the lost opportunities
I am sad for the relationship
that never really was
I am sad that my expectations
of what we could have been
were never realized.
Yes, I am sad.
And how my sadness manifests…
Well, there is no right way
There is no wrong way.
People grieve in different ways
People grieve for different things
Whose to say we aren’t all grieving
for what could have been?
I do know
that God sits right next to us
when we are sad.
No matter the reason, He sits.
He loves.
He hugs.
And it’s ok to be sad
for what could have been.
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged expectations, love, mom, mother, perfect, poetry, self worth, thankfulness on May 13, 2012| 3 Comments »
Sometimes Moms
forget all the things they do
forget all the things they have done
Sometimes Moms
focus on things they think they should have done
focus on things still yet to do
focus on things they could have done differently
Wait, Moms – 
that misses the point
that cancels the good
that silences the truth
Moms
do all that they can
with all that they have
for everyone they love
in any given minute
Moms are heroes
especially because
they are not perfect.
The only one who expects
a perfect mom
is Mom.
♥ Happy Mother’s Day ♥
to the beautiful, worthy,
beloved just as you are
♥ Moms of the world ♥
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged afraid, control, expectations, not perfect, poetry, pressure, relationships, self worth on May 8, 2012| 4 Comments »
Disappointment
A golden lion
lounges in the grass
appears as an innocent
and playful cat
Yet in only a moment
will jump
rip out my heart
tear me in two
If I startle the cat
If I anger the cat
it may lift its mane
shake its head
show its teeth
roar
and I am afraid.
I don’t want you to let me down
I don’t want to let you down
So I don’t let you in
I don’t let you get close
I don’t let you near
I don’t expect anything from you
Keep the lion deep in slumber
O, who am I kidding?
I have expectations
I continue to have hopes
I continue to wish for things to be how I imagine them to be
The beast stirs and squints an eye
I try to resist
I pretend I can keep you out
I shield myself from you
I hide from disappointment
But expectations
wake the cat
I am exposed
and I am afraid.
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged desires, doubt, expectations, lies, life, poetry, power, self worth, silence, waiting on April 28, 2012| 2 Comments »
I am silent.
again.
Why don’t I speak?
Why don’t I share?
Why don’t I express my needs?
A little voice inside
tells me
my needs don’t matter
my cares aren’t valid
my desires are selfish
I should just keep them to myself.
But that’s a lie.
Then
another voice creeps in
This one tells me
others should ask me
about my needs
about my cares
If I am valuable,
they should want to ask
But that is also a lie.
My needs are valid
My cares are important
My opinions do matter
And
when I don’t share
my thoughts and feelings
when I expect others
to just know my desires
to know I am waiting to be asked
While I wait
I give away the power over my life.
And as I wait
for someone else
to determine my path
The lies get louder
The hurt seeps in
Self-doubt
plagues
All because of MY silence.
And I can fix it.
Know My Worth 