July 22, 2014 by Christine
On a day that feels
down
tough
rough
draining
We need to remember
to refill
our souls and spirits
with love and hope
We need to remember
our lives
have a purpose and meaning
that we might have lost touch with
We need to remember
that God
has a plan through us
to radiate love
And when things are rough
it’s because I’m trying to do it myself
And when I get drained
it’s because I’m using my own strength
And when things are down
it’s because I’m looking through human lenses
And on those days
I just need to remember
to look up
and my soul
will see
what I need to remember
Posted in Praise, Spiritual Awakening | Tagged anxiety, control, God, God's love, love, my own strength, only through God, poetry, pressure, refill your soul, self care, self worth, worry | 6 Comments »
June 25, 2014 by Christine
Bombarded daily
to define myself
by some worldly standard
of success
of beauty
of worth
Is my job good enough?
Am I in fashion?
Do I make enough money?
Does my hair look right?
Is my house acceptable?
How about my body?
Do I have the right friends?
Do I hang out in the best places?
Do I make everyone happy?
Does everyone like me?
Am I a good girl?
If I align my life
with what the world says
these standards should be
will I feel satisfied?
will I feel worthy?
Nope.
Because none of it
none of the stuff
none of the opinions
none of the ways in which the world wants to define me
none of it
makes me who I am
or adds any value
to my soul
For I am fearfully
and wonderfully made
Loved
and cherished
just as I am
Without all the stuff
Without being in style
Without pleasing anyone
For nothing I do,
nothing I have done,
and nothing that has been done to me
defines my worth
Posted in Poetry, Self worth | Tagged beauty, comparison is the thief of joy, expectations, false standards, fearfully and wonderfully made, God, pressure, self esteem, success, worth | 6 Comments »
May 20, 2014 by Christine
Sometimes I feel trapped
by my own decisions
Times I said “Yes”
when I should have said “No”
Times I was silent
when I really wanted to talk
Times I said “Sure”
when I meant “Nope”
Times I stayed
when I really wanted to go
Times I said “OK”
when I wanted to say “No way”
Times I smiled
when I wanted to scream
Times.
So many times.
But here’s the thing
I must remember
I can change my decisions
at any time
and I’m never really trapped after all.
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth | Tagged awareness, bad decisions, change, codependent, decisions, expectations, happily ever after, mental health, pressure, self care | 12 Comments »
May 10, 2014 by Christine
I remember
the moment of enlightenment
the moment
I first realized
Mom was also
a woman
Just like me
Learning
Growing
Doing the best she can
making the best decisions
she knows how
A child herself
raising children
showing them love
giving them confidence
teaching them faith
believing in their dreams
A woman herself
who laughs and cries
sometimes insecure and unsure
with hopes and dreams
beliefs about life
and all that it’s meant to be
Just like me
Posted in Healing, Self worth | Tagged expectations, faith, grace, human, human experience, learning, love, mom, mother, mother's day, woman, women | 4 Comments »
April 20, 2014 by Christine
e.e. cummings
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April 2, 2014 by Christine
I sit waiting
cringing on the inside
knowing what’s coming
harsh “helpful” words
in the name of feedback
I sit waiting
determined to remember
this says more about her
than it does about me
determined to remember
this is one person’s opinion
and doesn’t define me
determined to remember
that I’m covered by grace
and don’t have to be perfect
I radiate light
Visualizing that light
swells me with strength
I sit a bit straighter
I lean forward and smile
For I am not defined
by this conversation
and I will not cower
anticipating criticism
Posted in Healing, Self worth | Tagged anxiety, coaching, control, criticism, doubt, feedback, letting go, perfectionism, relationships, self worth, that's not helpful, worry | 14 Comments »
February 25, 2014 by Christine
Nothing I say today
will be especially wise
Nothing I feel today
will be unique to me
Nothing I cook today
will amaze any tastebuds
Nothing I write today
will be new words
And yet
Nothing I hear today
can make me feel badly
Nothing I start
Nothing I finish
Nothing I think on
Nothing I forget
Nothing today
Not one single thing
will impact my worth
No matter my feelings, my words, my skills
No matter my hurts, my worries, my fears
I shine filled with grace
with love and hope
For God’s love is pure
and grace so freely given
that nothing I do
nothing that’s done
will add or diminish
will polish or dirty
God’s treasured creation
that is me
Posted in Healing, Self worth | Tagged control, expectations, God, grace, letting go, love, nothing I do, perfectionist, poetry, self worth | 9 Comments »
February 9, 2014 by Christine
When someone I love
is in pain or fear
unsure of what to do
crying or angry
I find myself
instantly geared
for superhero mode
ready to swoop in
red cape sailing
shiny boots glinting
fists on hips
I’m ready to rescue
lift you out of the dark
erase your fear
remove your pain
But that’s not my job
And when I do
try to swoop in
with a fancy cape
and all the answers
I deny God
the opportunity to speak
the opportunity to heal
the opportunity to grow closer
to a beloved child
But
I find myself thinking
God can’t want this for you!
God must have put in my heart
to jump in
to share wisdom
to lift you
up up and away
But who am I to know
what God wants for you?
what God will use
in your life
to bring you closer to Him?
For I myself
have had hurts
traumatic pain
unhappy experiences
And God has used each one
to make me who I am
And so I must
fold up my cape
store away the boots
And let God
be the superhero
you need
Posted in Healing | Tagged anxiety, codependent, expectations, faith, God, letting go, poetry, pressure, relationships, rescue, self worth | 10 Comments »
January 16, 2014 by Christine
I need to let go
of the need
for control
When I think I have everything handled
When I think I’ve got it all figured out
When I think I know the answers
I don’t.
I need to let go
of the need
for certainty
When I think I found the right path
When I think I am ready to charge ahead
When I think I see a perfect vision and purpose
I don’t.
Because certainty is an illusion
And looking for it
leads me into
hesitation
fear
paralysis
Yet if I let God
do Her thing
If I let go of the need
for control
for certainty
Then all that I need
the desire
the power
the energy
the faith
All will be given to me
Just when I need it
Just how I need it
completely and beautifully
out of my control
Posted in Spiritual Awakening | Tagged control, doubt, ego, faith, fear, God, letting go, Philippians 2:13, prayer, purpose, self, trust, worth | 4 Comments »
January 3, 2014 by Christine
When I feel alone
in a room crowded with people
When I feel panic
swelling in my gut
When I feel worry
creeping into my brain
When I feel uneasy in any way
I know the darkness of fear
is trying to get in
I know the dark one
is trying to break me down
But I am a child of light
I am loved
I am never alone
My life mapped
My purpose designed
And like a child
into a swimming pool
I must jump
with all my being
with childlike trust
and splash and play
in waters of uncertainty
without the flotation devices
of knowledge and control
yet faith and hope
keep me afloat
So when I feel fear, panic or worry
When I feel uncertain or out of control
It’s time to let go
to live in faith
to jump in the pool
to float in trust
surrounded by love
Posted in Healing, Poetry, Spiritual Awakening | Tagged anxiety, doubt, faith, fear, God, hope, letting go, love, pressure, self worth, trust | 10 Comments »
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