Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged assertiveness, comparison, expectations, faith, pressure, self worth on October 19, 2012| 7 Comments »
Only I can know my own experience.
Only I can know my own direction.
My path is probably different from yours –
it is mine after all.
Walk with me, add comfort and company,
but please, never tell me I’m doing it wrong.
I may not always be “right”
I may sometimes get a little lost
but that’s all
part of my journey
and none of it
is ever wrong
It’s my path
and only I
can say where it goes.
Posted in Photo quotes, Self worth, tagged expectations, growth, letting go, perfect, poetry, pressure, self worth, unfinished on August 28, 2012| 3 Comments »
Every day is something new
concepts to learn
circumstances for growth
Striving
Reaching
Practicing
Pretending to be
perfecting
But
perfect is not attainable
And
perfect is not necessary
Because
perfection paralyzes
I am unfinished
I always will be unfinished
and that is ok
Posted in Healing, Poetry, tagged codependency, expectations, hurt, mind games, pressure, relationships on August 22, 2012| 11 Comments »
You mess with my mind
You play games with my head
You show up in my life
when you feel like it
but ignore me
when I need you
I’m hopeful
then scared
then angry
then abandoned
I try to connect
to build a relationship
desperate to have
what I have always craved
with you
and when you don’t respond
then I try to let go
try to move on
heal that open wound
and then somehow
you sense it
I am moving on
leaving the game
So you pull me back in
You give me a taste
You pretend to care
You do just enough
before disappearing again
you take
and take
I let you
I keep coming back for more
because
I don’t really know
how to make it stop
how to let go completely
because
that might hurt
even more
than this
Posted in Photo quotes, Poetry, Self worth, tagged decisions, expectations, personal power, poetry, pressure, self worth on August 5, 2012| 3 Comments »
Each new day
I get to choose
My slice of life
my outlook and views
So today will it be a slice of fresh fruit
juicy and sweet
or a slice of pizza
a soft, gooey treat
How about a slice of cake
filled with sugar and spice
or a slice of warm bread
comfortingly nice
Or maybe today
I’m feeling beat
so it’s a slice of old cheese
smelling of feet
You may chose differently
and you may judge my choice
But my slice is my decision
and it’s always my voice
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged expectations, love, mistakes, perfect, poetry, pressure, self worth on July 31, 2012| Leave a Comment »
I got it wrong
and yet,
it is going to be ok
The world won’t stop spinning
Volcanoes won’t erupt
Storms won’t bring floods
The people who love me
will still love me
I expect
and need
to have all the answers
I expect
and need
to always be right
And when I’m not
when my info is wrong
when I make a mistake
when I do the wrong thing
I fall apart inside.
I don’t want to be rejected.
But here’s the truth: I don’t have to be right to have value.
My value isn’t based on
what I know
what I do
how smart I am
how often I am right
or wrong
I just have to be
just be me
to have value and worth
and yes,
the world will stay in orbit
Posted in Photo quotes, Self worth, tagged expectations, love, perfect, poetry, pressure, self worth, waiting on July 3, 2012| 9 Comments »
I don’t have to be
perfect
to make the world a better place
to offer something
to you
My flaws
My mistakes
They will surface
often when I least expect them
And yet
making a mistake
doing it “wrong”
showing my imperfections
These are not reasons
to give up
Instead
these are opportunities
to be genuine
to be vulnerable
to try again
If I wait
to be perfect
or even “better“
People will miss out on
all that I am today
and this gal
has something to give
Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged expectations, free, God, grace, just be, letting go, love, perfect, pressure, self worth, worry on June 24, 2012| Leave a Comment »
I AM FREE
I am free from
should and ought to
I am released from
comparison
expectation
obligation
I no longer need
<to pretend>
to be
a superhero
a perfect person
all-knowing
all-anticipating
the protector
I am free from
being always at the ready
being anxious about others’ needs
worry
I am free
from needing to be
anything other than
imperfect me
For I am a child of God
covered by His grace
shining with His light
And so
I am free
to laugh
to feel joy
to be flawed
to love
to be loved
to cry when I am sad
to be broken when I hurt
to be fierce with no regrets
I AM FREE
❤ Happy birthday, M – you are free ❤
Posted in Photo quotes, Self worth, tagged expectations, perfect, pressure, relax, self worth, trust on May 27, 2012| 3 Comments »
Today
I will not feel pressured
to DO anything
Today
I will work on just being
I will work on just relaxing
and that’s ok –
in fact, it’s perfect
Why do I find myself in judgment when I’m not “being productive”?
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged afraid, control, expectations, not perfect, poetry, pressure, relationships, self worth on May 8, 2012| 4 Comments »
Disappointment
A golden lion
lounges in the grass
appears as an innocent
and playful cat
Yet in only a moment
will jump
rip out my heart
tear me in two
If I startle the cat
If I anger the cat
it may lift its mane
shake its head
show its teeth
roar
and I am afraid.
I don’t want you to let me down
I don’t want to let you down
So I don’t let you in
I don’t let you get close
I don’t let you near
I don’t expect anything from you
Keep the lion deep in slumber
O, who am I kidding?
I have expectations
I continue to have hopes
I continue to wish for things to be how I imagine them to be
The beast stirs and squints an eye
I try to resist
I pretend I can keep you out
I shield myself from you
I hide from disappointment
But expectations
wake the cat
I am exposed
and I am afraid.
Posted in Poetry, Self worth, tagged expectations, perfect, poetry, pressure, self worth, waiting on April 11, 2012| Leave a Comment »
I’m not going to wait
for everything to be perfect
I’m not going to wait
for me to be perfect
to look a certain way
to have a certain education
to own a certain item
to be a certain age, weight, status…
Now.
Now is the time
the time to live
the time to be
the time to experience
all that God has planned
all that life has to offer
all that I am meant to be
Know My Worth 