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My plan for 2013

Posted in Healing, Poetry, Praise, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on January 1, 2013| 13 Comments »

Dear God,

With all my heart,
This year
2013
I give to you

Every year
I spend so much time
setting goals
figuring and strategizing
planning and organizing
mapping and preparing

for what?
illusion of control

This year
2013
I want to let go
of my need to control

of knowing
HOW
everything will turn out

of knowing
WHICH
is the “right” way

of knowing
WHERE
my path winds

I want to
let go of knowing
every little thing

This year
2013
I want to rest
and let you
do the figuring
the mapping
planning

And if I let you
You will guide me
and hold my hand
You will lead me
and lift the light
You will carry me
in your arms
You will give me the strength
to let it all go

This year
2013
my only plan
is to have no plan
of my own
and God,
you do all the knowing

God, I give 2013 to you

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Celebrating Wisdom

Posted in Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , , , , on November 8, 2012| 8 Comments »

Hello friends!
Today is my 40th birthday, and I’ve been having fun over the last two weeks celebrating the one year anniversary of this blog and Facebook page along with this upcoming day.

So how do I celebrate?
By celebrating wisdom.

First, I honored this little phrase as it was the one that started it all for me:

And this got me thinking; I seem to like my wisdom in small nibbles.

Such powerful things can be said in short phrases.

Words that make us think, images that bring us smiles

And now I have fallen in love with this concept.

So much so,
that I have started
another blog
dedicated to little bites of 3-word wisdom.

If little nibbles with your cup of tea too, come on over here to sign up.
I’m posting one nugget each day (so far), and I think you might enjoy them.
I know I am.

Thanks so much
to each of you
for being here
with me
on this journey!
❤ Love, Light and Blessings ❤

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Anxiety

Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , , , on November 2, 2012| 8 Comments »

I waffle

acknowledge that I’m not feeling great
and wonder if I should stay home today
but then shake my head
to clear that thought
and say
Suck it up!
Charge Ahead!

So I try
to suck it up
to do the daily routine
to meet expectations

Yet I find
I’m still screaming
on the inside

too many thoughts
but nothing coherent
spinning
unsafe
relentless

life must go on
I must try to function
or at least pretend
Does anyone see through me?

My insides scream
“I can’t function!”
Yet here I am
walking to the front entrance
I remembered to bring a snack
but didn’t bother to match my clothes
or style my hair

Because it’s all a show
and I can only prepare
so many of the props
sew together so many of the costumes
paint so many of the backdrops
before my makeup
starts to melt
under the hot lights

But I walk in and smile
say good morning to all
I ask about your weekend
I get started on my tasks

and inside
I’m still screaming

AND THEN
I remind myself that

even though I feel this way
even though I don’t know what to do
even though I am lost and unsure
even though I don’t have all the answers
even though tomorrow may be worse

none of this impacts my worth
none of it speaks to my value
I don’t have to stop
screaming
in order to have worth
I don’t have to stop
pretending
in order to have worth

I am valuable just as I am
clothes mismatched
hair askew
internally disjointed

God loves me
exactly as I am
exactly this minute
and He sits with me
and comforts me
through anxiety

And in a few moments
or maybe a day or two
it just might
be better
an answer may come
the path may become clear
I may know what to do
I may feel better
I may, just may,
remember my worth

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Seeing Potential

Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , , , on October 25, 2012| 13 Comments »

Heartsick
and frustrated
when we can see
that people could be
so much more
so much bigger
so much greater
so much happier

if they only choose
to let go

to let go of some of their demons
some of their own insecurities
some of their own self-hatred

we can’t do it for them

and
it’s unimaginable for me
to let go of the HOPE
of anyone’s potential

if only he would ___
things would be awesome

maybe I could just ___
and it would all be ok

but I have to realize
that I can’t
I can’t fix it.
I can’t fix it for anyone
other than me

And so I must move on
without him
and focus on seeing
my own potential

 

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Unfinished

Posted in Photo quotes, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , , on August 28, 2012| 3 Comments »

Every day is something new
concepts to learn
circumstances for growth

Striving
Reaching
Practicing
Pretending to be
perfecting

But
perfect is not attainable
And
perfect is not necessary
Because
perfection paralyzes

I am unfinished
I always will be unfinished
and that is ok

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I Am Worthy

Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , on August 25, 2012| 4 Comments »

I am worthy.

Just as I am.

I don’t have to

do anything
spectacular

be anything
fabulous

say anything
profound

or fix
anything

to have worth.

Parts of my life are not perfect
I have made mistakes
and done things “wrong”

But I will not let imperfections
or the lies
from that useless emotion
of shame

keep me from knowing I have value
just as I am
today

no changes needed
no bad feelings warranted

I am human
I am worthy
I am loveable
I am fully me

and
I will need to accept me
if I want anyone
and everyone
to do the same

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Why didn’t you?

Posted in Healing, Poetry, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , on August 12, 2012| 9 Comments »

Why didn’t you…
Do what I needed you to do
Say what I needed to hear
Think about what I needed
Love me

Why didn’t you…
care about anyone
other than yourself

Why didn’t you…
lift me up
instead of tear me down

Why didn’t you…
keep your promises
or take care of me

Why didn’t you…
fix it
when you had
so many chances

Why didn’t you…
listen to my cries and
hear my heart breaking
as my world shattered
my life forever colored

Why didn’t you…
love me?

But
The hurt
The rage
They will not rule me

Because
It doesn’t matter
what you did
or what you didn’t do
I have value.

God listens to my cries
and holds me tight

God uses my shattered colors
to paint a beautiful canvas

God honors me and loves me
for exactly who I am
even with the hurt
even with the rage

God sees my worth
even when you
even when I
can’t.

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Oh, poor me

Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , , on July 1, 2012| 5 Comments »

Sometimes
I want
to just feel
sorry for myself

Oh, poor me.

I don’t have this
I don’t have that
or even more likely…
I didn’t have this
I didn’t have that

I was robbed
I was cheated
I don’t want this portion
Life is unfair

Oh, poor me.

Hey, snap out of it!

All the things I didn’t have
All the memories that aren’t ideal
All the mistakes that have been made
All the experiences, good and bad
All of the challenges I face each day

All of it

Creates the woman I am today
and I like me
except when I’m whining
about oh, poor me

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Free

Posted in Healing, Self worth, tagged , , , , , , , , , , on June 24, 2012| Leave a Comment »

I AM FREE

I am free from
should and ought to

I am released from
comparison
expectation
obligation

I no longer need
<to pretend>
to be
a superhero
a perfect person
all-knowing
all-anticipating
the protector

I am free from
being always at the ready
being anxious about others’ needs
worry

I am free
from needing to be
anything other than
imperfect me

For I am a child of God
covered by His grace
shining with His light

And so
I am free
to laugh
to feel joy
to be flawed
to love
to be loved
to cry when I am sad
to be broken when I hurt
to be fierce with no regrets

I AM FREE

❤ Happy birthday, M  – you are free ❤

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Do your thing

Posted in Healing, Photo quotes, Poetry, tagged , , , , , , , on June 16, 2012| 2 Comments »

Hi God,
So, um, what’s the plan?
Where to next?
What steps to take?
What things do I need to do?

God,
don’t you see
that if I know the plan
I can start?
I can start making lists
I can start fixing problems
I can start moving mountains
I can start doing…

Oh.
I see.
You want me to rest in you.
You want me to hand it over to you.

Wait,
you don’t need me to plan?
you don’t need me to fix?
You’ve got it handled?
You sure you don’t need my help?

But
I have some great ideas…

Oh, well, Ok.
I will wait.
I will be right here
and
I will let you
do your thing

 

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