Know My Worth

how long will it take
to wipe it from my mind
pretend all is well
and just move on

should i be mad
sad or frustrated?

should i be kind
forgive and forget?

nothing you do
is even about me
even if it impacts me
it’s not about me

and so i must let go
i must move on
but i can’t pretend
and i can’t forget

I don’t want to

because that feels phony
and makes me a little sick inside

how do i move forward
without being fake

how do i move forward
without calling it out
without a scream or a shout
without even a whisper
of how i feel

how do i move forward
without making it about me…
even for a minute?

because if i just let it go
if i don’t say a thing
about how it makes ME feel
would it, could it
just might it happen again?

how do i let go
without being a mess
how do i let go
without spiraling in shame
how do i let go
and still believe in me?

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