I am silent.
again.
Why don’t I speak?
Why don’t I share?
Why don’t I express my needs?
A little voice inside
tells me
my needs don’t matter
my cares aren’t valid
my desires are selfish
I should just keep them to myself.
But that’s a lie.
Then
another voice creeps in
This one tells me
others should ask me
about my needs
about my cares
If I am valuable,
they should want to ask
But that is also a lie.
My needs are valid
My cares are important
My opinions do matter
And
when I don’t share
my thoughts and feelings
when I expect others
to just know my desires
to know I am waiting to be asked
While I wait
I give away the power over my life.
And as I wait
for someone else
to determine my path
The lies get louder
The hurt seeps in
Self-doubt
plagues
All because of MY silence.
And I can fix it.