5 light bulbs in my kitchen
going out
one by one
until only one remained
Over time
the view dimmed
I didn’t even realize
how my awareness
was being changed
Stains went unnoticed
Spills got ignored
Crumbs gathered in corners
with shards of a broken glass
Filth crept in.
But today –
today I changed
the dead light bulbs
and it’s helping me see
everything
more clearly.
Bright white light
floods into hidden corners
shadows recede
like defeated trolls
I can see
what I have let happen
slowly bit by bit
in the creeping darkness
I can see…
The stains
of the lie of self hated
The spills
of unfulfilled hopes
The shards
of self confidence broken
The crumbs
of acceptance I’ve scraped for
I see it now.
in the light.
And I remember
I don’t have to live like this.
I begin to clean.